Thursday, August 03, 2006

Restless Cognition

Its kind of weird...everything around...everything that I am experiencing, everything that I am feeling. I am not saying that whats weird is for good or bad.

I always believed that everything happens for a reason and purpose, but the way things are going with me I am not able to see the reason. And that's making me restless..as if I want to travel in the future understand the purpose of the present and then come back and enjoy the present. I am really surprised at my myself for thinking this way...this thinking was never my belief.

For the part that is good, I am doubtful of why are things suddenly good to me, I guess thats the height of being a pessimist. And for the part thats bad, I feel what did I do wrong to go through this, I just didnt deserve it. But yes in both the cases I am still not able to believe that it is all happening to me, it feels as if its just a dream and once I wake up things will get back to normal, just the way it was few months back. But may be this dream is the best thing happening to me.

In these months I have changed drastically, and so more drastically in this one month. Again for the good or bad I dont know. Why am I writing all these things even thats not known, why are things so very unclear these days.

But to speak the truth somewhere inside I know the reason for all thats happening, but....!!!

I am trying to be positive, and patiently wait for the reason to come up more clearly. Let see, what comes up.....

6 comments:

Hour Glass said...

Sometimes we dont want to acknodledge a few issues .... be it happiness or otherwise ......
newayz .... understanding and puting down what u exactly feel is in itself creditable ....
BTW - Nice and rare name ....
Just a passing thought ....
It's the picture of you that people make when the remember you, is more important than the literal meaning of Adrita ...
Newyaz ..... good posts ... Happy Posting.....

Hour Glass said...

heyy Sorry for misspelling ur name ...
Adrija.. :-)

Dew Drops said...

u r wondering y things r suddenly gud to u?? i am sick n tired trying to get out of this worst time of my life ;(((

Adrija said...

- hour glass
Thanks. Your passing thought is very true.


- dew drops
I guess it happens so, when u have been through the worst, u get relunctant in acknowledging the change for good.

TheOne said...

Well i feel like agreeing to dewdrops ..i dont knw who is that still ......As i always belive no point in over analyisng things .....Live life as it comes :) ...u might surely want to disagree ...Algorithms are surely perfect and they dont need ne excpetions :) ..... Still like is like this ..the more u want to take control of it the more u hate it ..thouh i dont belive in this but as waht ppl preach me and its the inductive wisdom ....Whatver crap i dont knwo..ITS RELALLY GOOD TO SEE U WRITTING AT LAST !

Adrija said...

-theone

No point over analysing...its true I agree but sometimes u just cant help.
Live life as it comes...if I would have followed this then I might have never come out of my worst days.
And algorithms do need exceptions, its only after these exception testing that they become perfect :) (non sense reply to ur nonsense dialogue, right?)